Recluse - For so long many of us were quiet , silent , set apart from the rest because we felt different, in some cases we did not even know why. When some were worrying about who to take to the school dance, the rest were trying to figure out how to fit in the world. For me, throughout my adolescent , it was a state of confusion. My only friend was the stillness of the night where I can go over and over in my head what was happening. How did I become a defect? what will happen if anyone knew who I wanted to take to the dance? The burden and worry a youth or any person has before coming out is sometimes too much to comprehend and handle. No one youth or adult should have to go through this feeling of exclusion in modern day society, just because of who they want to be with. The world is changing slowly and beginning to understand no one is a defect, just different. Soon all youths will just worry about being young and going to that school dance with whomever they choose and not think twice whether its a boy or girl.
Back Alley Angel
Wait - In this world of instant gratification, where we have information in an instant, ”wait” may become an extinct species. But....wait..... something’s are better waiting for; A flower to bloom, your first date, your first car, your first love. All these things build up anticipation, something to look forward to, and in doing so you may learn the value of what you are waiting for. I met my true love, my angel, at age 34 and I believe if we had met any sooner I would not have appreciated the wonderful and special person he is, or recognized the awesome love we have. So relax, surf the web, and take pleasure in waiting.
See no evil - It has taken me aback the horrors that we see in the news on a daily basis. Even in sacred places, on many levels, those in power turn a blind eye to the events. A place where Love is the resounding message, the actions are sometimes the opposite, it is humans that are fallible and sometimes evil. The message from above, from good, has been corrupted and used by some for their personal agendas.
Angel in the black
Lost - When my brother died it was like the world deflated, I refused to mourn his death because it would be real. Losing him was changing who I was, for if he didn’t exist then who would I become. It was only after that I realized we are constantly changing and we grow because of it, then I started to mourn. For without mourning my transformation would not be complete. That transformation included my realization that those things lost have already become part of me and they live and breathe through you.
Into the Light It takes over like a descending dark cloud in the middle of a bright blue-sky day. Your senses deceived you, what you have taken for granted now is taken from you. In this darkness you contemplate all the promises you made last time you were in this dark corner, trying to get out. You make those promises again, only this time you take action hoping that in this course things get better....and you wait.....going to be a long wait, you know it because you have been here before. But in that wait things change because of your eagerness, you gain strength to do the things that have been put off, you get a new perspective, a new view. It pierces through like light through darkness, you feel a new body, you feel new wings. And hope, you hope that when the cloud lifts, this new body, these new wings will allow you to soar again, but this time higher and achieve new things, revive those lost dreams, and appreciate those things you didn’t realize you had before. Then you will walk into the light, gently, like a heron walking lightly through the waters, but burst with a splash at the first sight of freedom.
Grounded - We at times, maybe more often than not, feel flightless because of life’s difficulty’s , challenges, upsets. We look around and everyone seems to soar above you, sometimes to unreachable heights. Yet these same individuals soaring above serve as a reminder that you too can soar again, that you have not lost your wings, just forgot they are there.
Be true to Your Self
Separation, from someone we love it’s an awful feeling. When you are attach to something it’s bad enough, but when that, what you are attached to is a human being , the feeling of separation is unexplainable. And when it’s out of your control, It’s gut wrenching and it’s inhuman. We, in any capacity as humans, can do better than separate our self from the love of our neighbor. To understand the pain that someone else is going through, is to understand ourselves as human beings. We as a human body, as spiritual beings are connected. We can’t say, that is their problem, or they should not have….. because in doing so, we are selling out ourselves.
It came upon us....suddenly. Yesterday we roamed the world, today we confine steps within our safe domain. It has to be...as our freedom was taken from us like a thief in the night or as a prey being snatched up at high noon. But there’s hope to go back to a changed world, for the world of our memories will remain in our memory. We shouldn’t despair in this dusk that sets upon us, for after there will be the Morning Star that will appear brighter than ever. The skies will also be changed as a lot more Angels will be watching over us in this new world.